Had trouble sleeping last night, thinking about my two major problems: cockroaches and work. Which is worse? haha. Combined they make me feel like like the biggest loser in the world. Someone who works at a call center and lives in a roach-infested apartment. I am going to ask for a meeting with the management people and talk about possible solutions. There has to be something they can do. I can't afford to move out.
Work is very boring right now which is almost as frustrating as when it is busy. Too much time to think and I'm stuck with Anthony. I broke down and chatted with him today. But I didn't engage him; he started talking to me. I have to remember that he doesn't care about me or value me as a friend. It is his ego that is driving this. It bugs him that I've stopped going over to talk to him and he can't figure it out. He just wants reassurance that everything is okay and I'm not going to give it to him. It's just work is so boring that people are being more chatty just in general. There aren't a lot of people to talk to after Ana leaves. I just need to remember that I'm doing this for me so I don't get all confused again. Even if he says he wants to be friends or acts like it now, he doesn't really. And it's a real sign of a problem that it bothers me so much what he thinks or does. I think I could get past it if I didn't have to see him everyday. Reason #847 to get a new job.
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